Bored to tears

The only reason why I’m blogging during office hours is ‘cos I have absolutely nothing to do! No orders to process, nothing to follow up and no close out that is due!

 

This is driving me crazy! How can people tolerate having nothing to do in the office and like it when they can just sit around the office and watch the day go by! It absolutely baffles me!

i feel :: restless ::

From here on

As I pen these thoughts down, my mind is more pre occupied with something bigger and very much more serious.

Since last night, I’ve been plagued by this thought and it’s still runnin in my mind. “What’s going to happen to me from 1 Jan 2010 onwards?”
“Am I going to be left hanging while I search?”

It’s two months from the end, but I figured that it’s about time I got my act together and start the search all over again. It doesn’t help that M who was supposed to stay till next year was just told a couple of days ago that she’s gonna b demob next week. It makes me go nuts thinking if they will ask me to leave early as well.

I seriously don’t have the luxury of time to ponder over this, simply because I have to and MUST start searching actively!

When I think about this whole 6 months, I’m got into it as quickly as I’m getting out. Who sends her resume on a Friday and then told to start work the following Monday? Now the 6 months deadline is up and I can see the end. Much as I am happy to go in search of something else int area of interest, bu I’m also very afraid to be thrown into the forest where I can’t see what is in front of me.

And with most of my friends doing well in their careers, it makes me wonder even more if I should still be sticking to the principle that I held on to so tightly all along. But I guess we all have our own routes to take. All I can do is stay on track and continue looking. Maybe it’s not the most radical thing to do, but I choose to believe with the right amount of determination I will be able to ultimately reach the goal that I’ve set for myself 4 years ago.

Now what needs to be done is to continue searching and reminding myself of the ambition that I’ve set for myself.

I feel :: pensive ::

PS: Those who made it this far by reading till the end, thanks for listenig (or reading) to my rants.

Curtain call for the year

After a long hiatus, I put on my running shoes again yesterday for the GE Women 10K. Honestly, I was dragging my feet there. Was not motivated to run and I was basically just feeling lazy.

And the best part? I forgot something very important and KY had to make a detour to pick it up from my place. We ended up having to go ahead with the run without her while she tried to catch up with us from where she was. Thankfully, that was the only thing that went wrong.

proud finisher

Testing

Tennis session ruined by the downpour. But at least we managed to get in 20 minutes of hitting.

The lightning was just too frequent and it freaked both of us out. Especially when we were on the roof top court.. :-/

So we were forced to end the session prematurely. But of course I was not going to let my evening go to waste. Headed to the new shopping mall, (city plaza??) to get my sushi fix..

At least the disappointment was made up for with some good food. And I have a new foun love for salmon. I wonder why I never took it in the past! Guess I missed out on this particular delicacy in the past.. But better late than never I guess?

Absolutely random post here. Especially since I am typing it on the bus, on the way home.. (The wonders of having a smart phone! ). Alright! Scooting off since I’m about to alight..

I feel :: absolutely frivolous ::

New favourite movie

So yesterday, I fell in love. And my love? The movie (500) Days of Summer. It’s been such a long time since I caught a (very) good show, and this was definitely worth the wait.

The previous movies I caught were bad. Trashy, if you might call them. I basically walked out of the theatre feeling like I just wasted 2 hours. But with this movie, I was glad I spent the evening waiting for it. I was tired but happy that i caught the show. ^_^

(500) Days of Summer

My ticket to the world

It’s here! The golden ticket is here! Arrived in the mail today and it felt like Christmas morning as I ripped open the envelope.

Now it feels even more real that I am actually going to be there..

I could hug the tickets to sleep tonight and smile in my sleep.. ^_^

Let the countdown begin

Just thinking about what I’m going to do next January excites me till no end! I can barely sit still in my seat as I am typing this down!! Excited is probably an understatement, I am really happy beyond words that this is happening!! And I haven’t stopped thinking of it since I clicked the ‘confirm’ button on Wednesday.

One of my biggest dreams is coming true in exactly 108 days time! And after that, it leaves another 3 to be conquered.

And we have just taken a step closer to that big big dream of mine..

i feel :: ecstatic ::

JUMP!

Honestly, there are so many things that I want to blog about, but I haven’t exactly been the most diligent on the blogging front. Off hand, I can think of three posts to do already.. -_-

So first things first, I am going to blog about JUMP! Went for the performance last week, so it’s not THAT long ago.

JUMP!

Fly me to a bistro in France

I was supposed to have done this a long while back. Considering the lesson was 2 weeks ago, I am way overdue.

So…. I signed up for another cookyn class. And this time, we were going to France! Think foie gras, duck breast, soufle.. That was all on the menu! This time, I went with the little sis, and I guess it was an interesting experience for her considering that she rarely even touches the stove at home!

with my cookyn partner

Felt like the world was spinning

Being my usual clumsy self, I always end up having to bend over and pick up the items that ‘accidentally’ fall off my desk at work.

And when I did that today, something very scary happened. The moment I looked up, I felt like the world was spinning. And for a moment, it felt like I was going to fall off my chair. It’s a super scary feeling ‘cos I’ve never felt this way before. So I sat at my desk, stunned for a good 5 minutes. Partly also ‘cos I didn’t dare to move, I was so afraid that I would black out or something.

I thought it was just a one off incident, but no… It happened again just now when I was in my room. Seriously, I don’t know what is causing this. And it’s scary to have everything around you move when you are absolutely stationary..

i feel :: worried ::

The day could not have been better

Teambuilding! An excellent ‘reason’ for the entire department to disappear from the office and play without worrying about what the bosses will say. ‘Cos the bosses play harder than anyone else! And the best part? Mr Blue Eyes was there..

guess who is Mr Blue Eyes

Always a new trick

I think my sister should be a clown if she can’t find a job after she graduates.

She left for Denmark about 2 weeks ago. And for two week, NOBODY realised that she did not bring the luggage keys with her. Until last night when I walked past my book shelf and saw the two black keys sitting nicely there.

So I immediately dropped her an email and asked her how did she manage to leave the keys in my room. and it seems that she just used the very flimsy combination lock to secure her luggage. This very hilarious scenario is in my head now. With all the compressed items that she’s gg to pack when she’s coming back, what if the luggage decides to give way and burst??

I can just picture Ali pulling her hair out when she sees it.. HAHA..

i feel :: amused ::

Morning checklist

My body is only programmed to perform a specific number of tasks within the first one hour of waking up.

Any changes to this machine schedule will result in uncalled ‘damages’. And as it is, the clockwork had to be broken this morning. I had an additional one task to perform. And this led to me forgetting 3 things. The sums don’t match, but that’s how it works in the morning.

So I am ‘handphone-less’ now. And feeling absolutely handicapped and uncomfortable without it. On top of that, I am have also forgotten something absolutely important (to me at least). I feel like slapping myself now for being such a klutz in the morning.

i feel :: handicapped ::

My love affair with the green furry ball

I remember the day I first picked up this game. It was only at the ‘instigation’ of my father that I signed up for the course. Reckon that was about 10 years ago? And at that time, I did not really feel like I enjoyed the game.

But 10 years later today, I sing a totally different tune. I play every week now, and I enjoy every single minute of it. Even if the training gets a little painful.

So here’s my love affair with a green furry ball and it’s partner

the green furry ball

On a plane to Denmark

My lucky ‘bird’ sister has left for the exchange programme on Tuesday night. And she’s probably just arrived in Denmark a couple of hours ago. I feel excited for her just thinking about the adventure that she is about to embark on!

So we had to do the customary thing and send her off at the airport. And honestly, the family was like the backdrop. She had throngs of friends who came to send her off! I think at least 20-25 of them? The friends basically overwhelmed the 10 family members she had there.. So imagine her entourage.. HAHA..

 
I must add that most of her friends are impressed with the scarf that I knitted for her.. And the fringe that I cut for her.. Woohoo!! Can consider being a hair stylist.. As it is, I am already missing her non-stop chattering.. And the bantering that we have almost everyday. But thanks to Skype and MSN (I think I will barely survive without these two), I will have ample opportunities to keep her ‘occupied’ online..

I’m sure the sister will have a blast there. Considering how beautiful the place she’s going to. But Alicia Chung, don’t forget your books while you are there.. Remember to update us with your adventures, and take care while you are in Denmark.. Not forgetting my one souvenir a month!!

i feel :: refreshed ::

All the best for your exciting journey!

cookyn up a storm

I’ve been reading about ‘Cookyn with Mervyn’ classes and have since been yearning to at least attend one. So imagine my excitement when I saw that the menu for the day was Wagyu beef burgers, Truffle fries & Milkshakes! I DEFINITELY had to sign up for this one. So I grabbed baba and ernie and off we went!

looks yummy~

If only you were there…

The one person I know who wanted to attend my convocation badly, was not there yesterday to see me walk across that stage. And it brings back some poignant moments for me.

For my grandfather who never got the chance to attend my graduation…

Finally I can say…

… I am a graduate!

Yesterday marked the close of a significant chapter in my life. And while I am ecstatic to be holding that certificate, it also meant that I no longer have the identity of a ’student’ to hide behind.

Indeed these four years have in CS has taught me so much and I can’t imagine myself in any other faculty other than this. I’m happy and thankful of the time that was spent in the little building that was tucked away in the huge NTU campus. We are a small faculty, but we definitely make ourselves heard!

There are loads of people that I want to thank for being on this wonderful journey with me. And honestly, the list can go on forever.

my family!

why are there such stupid people in this world

I am so mad now, I cannot even look straight!

A decision made

So after pondering for almost two whole days, I’ve come to my decision. And it was much easier than I imagined it to be.

Maybe ‘cos I was given another option. And this other option fitted into the gaps nicely. Most importantly, I was comfortable with this decision.

When it comes to decision making, I’ve always made a conscious effort to avoid it whenever possible. One of the main reasons was because I was afraid of the consequences that came together with the decision. And I did not want to deal with them. Yes, I run away from these situations.

So this time round, it was the same situation. I was afraid to say ‘Yes’, but yet I did not want to shut my doors on anything. At the end of the day, I think it’s because I am way too persistent with what I want, that I lose sight of an alternative route to that end point. With that being said, I am glad that something has been done right now. At least I have a few more months on my hands to work out my options. And hopefully by then the situation will turn better, and things will not be so tough.

i feel :: hopeful ::